Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Hoping for direction

Thank you ladies about the HSG info! We have not decided yet if we will do it or not...after calling the doctor and hospital, it looks like it will cost nearly $2000!!! We were not necessarily prepared for that, and feel maybe like we should hold off on that, especially if IVF is down the road. We have an appointment with the doctor today, full of questions (what else is new! lol) I am hoping he can give us some direction. If not, I think Ben and I have decided to try 2 more IUI's with the trigger shot. Our first 2 at least, we do not feel were timed right. If we can get pregnant this way, I know our bank account would be happy.
I am really struggling with the cost of IVF...I have absolutely NO DOUBT it would be worth it if we got pregnant the first time. It is hard to imagine paying so much just to see another negative pregnancy test. I am not trying to be debbie-downer, and I apologize for my negativity. We spent the last 24 hours really seeking God for answers. There is no question that our hope and future are in Him and Him alone. I am so thankful He has given us such an amazing doctor to fill in all of those blanks. I really thought we would go home last night with a clear decision. We do not have that, but we both feel that going forward with 2 IUI's is what makes us the most comfortable. Wouldn't life be so great if God would just hit us over the head or allow us to run into a huge billboard full of life's questions!?!
Anyways, I told a sweet friend yesterday that, truly, I want people to see Jesus in me through all of this. I will no doubt have my bad days, and will struggle with the why's of it all. But I am dedicated to moving past those thoughts. I want so badly to bless others, especially now. We are not rich by ANY means. Not everything we can do for others is financial, but I am so excited to seek those opportunities for God to allow us to love and bless someone else. It completely takes the focus off of me and my whiny self:)
I will update tomorrow with hopefully our plan of action! I am praying for each of you who read this that God's unfailing love, mercy, and peace that passes all understanding will surround you this very moment!!!

1 comment:

  1. I understand the IVF pricetag, trust me! But what our doc told us is that if 3 IUIs didn't work, it probably wouldn't and to take the next step. Plus your probability goes from 20% to about 50%! It is a hard thing to swallow and we haven't started yet, but there are different programs out there that will help you. I know of an IVF Scholarship program. I investigated but it didn't suit us, search "IVF Scholarship."

    Also, there are "Shared Risk" programs out there that will give you a certain amount of IVF tries and if you get through all of them and still aren't pregnant, you get your money back! Kinda has the doc in the same shoes as you. Might be something to investigate, as well as that you can get a Medical Credit Card (again, yes it sucks) but at least you don't have to stomach the bill all at once. I used that when I had my Lasik surgery done and it was great, even had no interest for a year or 18 months or something.

    Where there is a will there's a way sweetie. Let me know if you want more things to investigate, I am the Queen of Infertility Research on the Internet! Wishing you luck!

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