Wednesday, March 23, 2011

How we told

Wow! It's been way too long since I have updated...I'm afraid I have already forgotten things that I don't want to forget. Here is how we told our family and friends...
We found out on a Wednesday...it was hard because we had church that night and knew we would see many people that we were not ready to tell, but REALLY wanted to! After confirming with the doctor, we got to have lunch with Ben's mom. She was in town for a conference at another church, so the timing worked out perfectly! After our blood work, we made a quick trip to wal-mart, found a super cute frame that said "Grandkids are the sunshine of life", or something like that! Of course we didn't have a picture to put in it, but we decided to give it to her at lunch. When she opened it, she stared at it, then said, "Are you pregnant?" to which we quickly replied "YES!!!" We talked the rest of lunch about the news:)
That night at church, Ben just couldn't contain himself. He grabbed his best friend Jason, and told him he had something to show him in one of the Sunday School rooms...as soon as the door closed Ben almost yelled, "We're pregnant!" Jason could not have been happier. It was super fun to tell someone right away!
That Friday, we got to have lunch with Jason and his wife, Suzy, and tell her also.
Ben's mom took the frame we gave her home, along with two others...one for his grandma, Nano, and one for his brother Jonathan. They both said "to my" then Uncle or great-grandma!
For my family, my sister was coming to town to see us on Friday. We got a sweater of Barker's, our beloved 4 legged son, and put stickers on it that said "big brother". When she got to our house, he was wearing it. It took her a while, but when she finally saw it, she screamed and laughed and cried!
We sent a picture of Barker to my parents, brothers, and their wives with Barker in his sweater! They were of course super excited!
We told our students a few weeks later, after all was confirmed with the ultrasound. Since we are seeing a fertility doctor, we got a special ultrasound (twice now), and got to hear the heartbeat just before 7 weeks! We played a "guess that sound" game with our students that night. The last one was the heartbeat and Ben said "it's not just any ultrasound, that's Elizabeth's ultrasound, and that heartbeat is OUR BABY!!!" WE'RE PREGNANT!!!" The students screamed and a bunch ran back to hug me:) It was so great! We have been waiting so long to share our news, and I still have a hard time believing it's actually true!!!!!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

how we found out!

First of all, I know that many people will not read my blog anymore, and I completely understand. My heart hurts so deeply for all of my sweet bloggie friends who have not yet seen those 2 beautiful lines. I can fully comprehend the pain when you find out that someone else has been able to get pregnant, and you are still waiting. I do not want to cause anyone pain, so for that, it will not hurt my feelings at all if you stop reading until your miracle comes!
I currently find it hard to think of anything else, besides that sweet life growing inside of me. This is due to the long wait finally being over and a new one beginning, but also the exhaustion and nausea that has taken over my life (but it is the best "sickness" EVER!)
Just over 6 weeks ago, we had our 5th IUI. I was sure it didn't work...Ben swimmers were a little less than what we had hoped and my stress level was through the roof. Ben has, ever since we started trying, told me not to test without him. There has only been 1 time that I tested with him (which does not make him happy)! It is hard to test with him, knowing it will be negative. In those first few moments, I just need time to process what is not meant to be. Well, valentine's day was no different. The day started rocky with no water at home, having to shower at church, rushing home to meet the plumber, getting pulled over (praise the Lord all I got was a warning), and then the pregnancy test. I took it that Monday sure it would say "STILL NO BABY!!!", and I was right. I was surprisingly ok, knowing that we had contacted adoption agencies, made our appointment for the IVF class, and still had 1 more IUI to hope for!
On Wednesday, I took my temp as usual. I had had some cramping Monday and Tuesday night, but just thought I was about to start. On Wednesday, my temp was still up and I had not started. This was not super unusual, so I thought why not test again so I'm not wondering "what if" all day. I was SURE it would still be negative. After I took the test, I didn't really think much more about it. I brought it to the living room, sat on the couch in the dark with the dog, and proceeded to watch TV. After a few minutes I checked it and there it was...a very faint SECOND line! I didn't believe it, so I grabbed my phone to shine on the test...it was still there! I turned the light on, almost passed out, then woke Ben up. He thought it was not accurate. He said since it was so faint not to get our hopes up. He was remembering our OPK's where a faint line means nothing-lol...we drove to Wal-Mart at 7:30 to get a digital test. Ben describes it like a jack-in-the-box...you watch a little timer for what seems like forever, then POP...PREGNANT!!!
I'll share more later about telling people...more for my ability to remember as I'm sure it will bore you to tears!

Sunday, March 13, 2011

my absence

Sorry I have been gone so very long....I don't have long today, but just wanted to share with you how completely and totally faithful God is...we are PREGNANT!!! More details to come later, but for now I will say again, GOD IS FAITHFUL!!!!