Well, things are super busy around here! Ben was blessed to get to speak at a good friends D-Now last weekend...it was a blessing both financially and just to see friends! We got home late Saturday, then had to be at church at 7:45 the next morning. We also started revival which ends this Wednesday...as soon as we finish Wednesday, Ben and I head to QSBC to set up for the Oklahoma Youth Ministry Forum (Ben is on the work group for this). We have to be there super early on Thursday to get things started, but it will be fun! We have so many friends coming this year, and they have a special pampering time just for the wives on Friday!!
So in the midst of all the craziness, we have some dear friends at church who, this past Sunday, threw us a shower for our puppy...strange, a little, but so sweet:) When we got to the restaurant, we just assumed it was to celebrate Claires (one of our students) 16th B-day! Then someone yelled surprise to us...it was shocking but still so fun! For a brief period of time, I was not consumed with the fact that we do not have a baby that only has 2 legs:)
We do love Barker so much and would not trade him for anything! There is nothing sweeter than when he curls up in our lap while we sit on the couch to watch TV. In the morning, he seems to tire pretty quickly. As we are getting ready for work, he will start to whimper letting us know it's time to sit down so he can come cuddle! I know I will love my own child more, but right now, I think about Barker all the time. I worry and hope that he sleeps while we are not there so he does not miss us too much...I wonder if he knows how much we love him...I wonder if he knows that he has filled part of this void that we so often feel!
We have talked more and more about the possibility of adoption. We are not making any hasty decisions though. We will get through the rest of the doc appointments this year, then see where it all takes us. This is a rough and sometimes heartbreaking journey, but I would not want to be on it with anyone other than Ben. I know it was no mistake that God brought us together. Only Ben could handle all of my crazy emotions and crying spells when there seems to be no reason!
Thank you God for this journey. You call us to praise you in our trials so that is what I will do! I know you have the absolute best plan for our lives and I know that our human nature too many times tries to mess it up. Thank you for alwasy reminding us of the ways you have been faithful in the past. It gives us hope for the future!
God bless you all today!
