Monday, November 28, 2011

1 month old!

Lincoln Andrew! You are 1 month old!!! You are the most amazing little boy I have ever laid my eyes on!!!!
You are on an awesome schedule...You eat every 3 hours starting at around 7am...I usually have to wake you up to eat! After your first feeding, you usually lay on mommy's chest and go back to sleep for a little while until it's time for mommy and daddy to get up (close to 8). You are so happy when you wake up! You started smiling right at 4 weeks old and have not stopped! You play with us while we get ready, then, right now, we head to church. You stay awake from 8-10, eat, play a few minutes, then nap until I wake you at 1! You are either awake from 1-4 or 4-7 depending on what we have done that day. I can't believe you can stay up that long! After a long wake time, you sleep really well:) Most of the time after your 7pm feeding, you will play with us till bath time at 8:30. Then we feed you at 9, put you to bed, and wake you at 11 to eat one last time to make sure your belly is full. You have typically been sleeping 4 hours during the night, wake up to eat, then sleep 3 more hours. The past 2 nights, you have slept 5 hours!!! Way to go!!!
   We just moved you up to size 1 diapers, and you will be out of your newborn clothes soon:( I can't believe how fast you are growing. At your 2 week check up, you weighted 8.3...mommy weighed you this morning and you are almost 10 pounds! You are a super fast eater, but you apparently eat a lot!
   You survived your first thanksgiving with both families. I think we put you through the ringer, being passed around so much, but you handled it like a champ! Mommy and daddy could not possibly be more in love with you! You love to count with daddy in english, spanish, and german everday! You smiled big when daddy was telling you about Jesus last night...it made mommy's heart happy!
   I love you sweet boy!!!

Time flies!

  I cannot believe our little man is almost 5 weeks old!!! It has been a whirlwind! When we got home from the hospital, there were so many emotions...by Saturday (after getting home on Thursday), I was exhausted and still in quite a bit of pain. All of a sudden Saturday night, the "baby blues", or so I thought, set in. When everyone had finally left, except my mom, I told Ben to meet me in the bathroom after getting the mail, and I cried for what seemed like forever. I was not prepared for that. My mom watched Lincoln until it was time for him to eat so I could sleep some. We had to take her to the train station to go home the next morning. More tears. Tons of anxiety...not that I could not handle being a mom, but fear of Ben going back to work and leaving me. I had thoughts of him not wanting to be with me anymore, and fears that I would lose him, either to someone else or that he would get into a wreck and be killed. Completely irrational!!!
   When my mom left, I had Ben call his mom to see if she would come help us. I thought I was going to be super mom when I came home, and would not need any help! ha!!! By the time she got there, I was a total mess. I couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, and it was all I could do just to feed Lincoln. My heart just broke.
   I called the doctor Monday just to make sure I was doing everything I needed to do to get past these emotions. When I explained everything, she told me they thought I had post pardum depression. It was a new mix of emotions...I was glad to know there was something they could do to help, but completely devastated that I was diagnosed as being depressed. This was supposed to be the happiest time of my life! I was put on meds that day, and within a week, felt so much better! I am still taking a very small dose, but am hoping they will begin to ween my off next week!
   Ben has been amazing! He switched sides of the bed with me so that he could help more with Lincoln. I have come to the office with him everyday, just because the thought of being alone at home with Lincoln was overwhelming. He helps with bath time every night, and stays up with me until after the 11pm feeding. I could not ask for a better husband!!!
   Tomorrow will be our first day to send daddy off to work:( I am looking forward to getting laundry done and hopefully a nap! Lincoln is so incredibly wonderful! I would just lay with him all day if he would sleep that long:)

Monday, November 7, 2011

LINCOLN IS HERE!!!

Well, the night of my last post was the last one we spent with just Ben and myself. We did out normal Monday activities, which included visitation at church. We went to bed around 10:30, only to be woken up by the most horrible pain I have ever experienced. I did pray that I would go into labor on my own. My doctor had no intention of inducing before 2 weeks, but I just really wanted every experience that goes along with having a child...and that included labor pains-crazy, I know!
   At 1:30 Tuesday morning, I woke up in horrible pain. I waited through 2 contractions, then told Ben if I have 2 more, we are not timing anything, but going to the hospital. Sure enough, they kept coming and there was very little time in between them. They started and kept up at 2-3 minutes apart! We called our best friends down the street, and dropped Barker off at their house. Kristi and Katie met us at the hospital at 3:30. We would have been there sooner, but I wanted to shower first, and go by Jack in the Box...they had already turned their milkshake machine off though:(
   When we got to the hospital, we got a ride to the doors by a nice man on a golf cart doing security. Ben wheeled me to the 4th floor, where they proceeded to ask me a ton of questions. I could barely answer when a contraction hit, as they had me in tears. They got us to a room, checked me, and said yep, we were staying! Within an hour, I had an epidural and was ready to party! Kristi and Katie stayed with us the whole time, even after our families arrived. We love them dearly!!!
   The nurse kept telling us that we were only allowed 4 people in the room at a time. Everyone would clear out, then slowly trickle back in. We were given a stern look a few times, but it was much more fun with everyone there:)
   At around noon, they called my doctor and said I was ready to push. She arrived around 1 and it all happened so fast. Lincoln Andrew was born at 2:13 on Tuesday, October 25, 2011!!! He was 7 pounds 15 oz. and 20 inches long. He scored almost perfectly on his Apgar test, did score perfectly on his hearing test, and is just amazing!!! We love him so dearly:)
   Last week was an intensely crazy week, but I'll update on that tomorrow. For now, Lincoln and I are at work with daddy, and we love it. The sling he currently sleeps in is so portable, and Lincoln is such a good baby! I'm so thankful that Ben's works at a church and, at least for now, we can still do ministry together!