how we found out!

First of all, I know that many people will not read my blog anymore, and I completely understand. My heart hurts so deeply for all of my sweet bloggie friends who have not yet seen those 2 beautiful lines. I can fully comprehend the pain when you find out that someone else has been able to get pregnant, and you are still waiting. I do not want to cause anyone pain, so for that, it will not hurt my feelings at all if you stop reading until your miracle comes!
I currently find it hard to think of anything else, besides that sweet life growing inside of me. This is due to the long wait finally being over and a new one beginning, but also the exhaustion and nausea that has taken over my life (but it is the best "sickness" EVER!)
Just over 6 weeks ago, we had our 5th IUI. I was sure it didn't work...Ben swimmers were a little less than what we had hoped and my stress level was through the roof. Ben has, ever since we started trying, told me not to test without him. There has only been 1 time that I tested with him (which does not make him happy)! It is hard to test with him, knowing it will be negative. In those first few moments, I just need time to process what is not meant to be. Well, valentine's day was no different. The day started rocky with no water at home, having to shower at church, rushing home to meet the plumber, getting pulled over (praise the Lord all I got was a warning), and then the pregnancy test. I took it that Monday sure it would say "STILL NO BABY!!!", and I was right. I was surprisingly ok, knowing that we had contacted adoption agencies, made our appointment for the IVF class, and still had 1 more IUI to hope for!
On Wednesday, I took my temp as usual. I had had some cramping Monday and Tuesday night, but just thought I was about to start. On Wednesday, my temp was still up and I had not started. This was not super unusual, so I thought why not test again so I'm not wondering "what if" all day. I was SURE it would still be negative. After I took the test, I didn't really think much more about it. I brought it to the living room, sat on the couch in the dark with the dog, and proceeded to watch TV. After a few minutes I checked it and there it was...a very faint SECOND line! I didn't believe it, so I grabbed my phone to shine on the test...it was still there! I turned the light on, almost passed out, then woke Ben up. He thought it was not accurate. He said since it was so faint not to get our hopes up. He was remembering our OPK's where a faint line means nothing-lol...we drove to Wal-Mart at 7:30 to get a digital test. Ben describes it like a jack-in-the-box...you watch a little timer for what seems like forever, then POP...PREGNANT!!!
I'll share more later about telling people...more for my ability to remember as I'm sure it will bore you to tears!